Ok, so... I am really upset because my baby seems to love my stepdad way more than she does me. When she was born, I went through hell, and was basically in and out of emergency rooms for a month, not even being able to sit up, let alone take care of the baby. So, my mom and stepdad took me home with them to help me and the baby, which I am eternally grateful for. <3
I know I didn't have a lot of time to bond with her, being so extremely sick, but I have been trying my hardest and spending a lot of time with her, since I was forced to resign from my job due to my sickness. And all the time, whenever she sees my stepdad, she cries for him and throws a fit when she can't be with him, but never does it with me. I feel that all she wants me for is for breastfeeding. And I thought that breastfeeding encouraged bonding, and I try so hard to bond with her, but it seems like no matter how hard I try, she seems to like him more.
My mom, stepdad, and everyone else thinks I'm being oversensitive (which I might be, I'm not sure, which is why I'm asking), but it really hurts my feelings when I'm holding my baby and she wants to b e with my stepdad over me. I went through so much for her, and it just seems like it's in vein now.
I also know part of the reason is that because she loves to go outside, but because of how sick I was, I cannot be as active as she wants me to be. I go to physical therapy and everything, and I try really hard to keep up with her, but it proves to be too much sometimes, which is why I still live with my mom and stepdad for much needed help.
I just want to know, am I being overly sensitive about it? It just really breaks my heart and makes me want to cry whenever she wants my stepdad over me, and seems happier with him. I don't know, I really don't have many friends, and I just wanted to vent and get some advice and opinions.
*Oh, and sorry about my California - Valley Girl accent lol! I know it's hard to understand sometimes and can be lazy and annoying xD *
Edited by briannarushing, 20 May 2010 - 03:04 PM.