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I liked this friend of mine for 3 years.
Within those 3 years, I well flirted with him. He didnt'seem to mind. In fact sometimes he would actually talk with me instead of his other friends. During lunch we talked a lot. He often showed me card tricks too, he is really funny, smart, etc. He is tall, much taller than me. He was totally my type.
We also had "awkward" moments, like this one time when we were walking outside in the rain, no one was around except us and I had an umbrella but he preferred to get soaked in the rain...and we would just sometimes stare at each other.
Whenever he was with me he would just stare, it made me feel all tingly inside xD!
One year I came across my friend's older brother. We actually ended up walking together for about an hour. He is so tall, just like his younger brother. We got a long pretty well.
I confessed to my friend's older brother that I liked his younger brother. I told him that he was the first person I ever really "liked" (you know, your hearts starts beating when they're around, etc.).
I asked permission from his older brother if it's okay to like him that way, and eh said yes. He also gave me permission to just go wherever my friend went xD.
On that same day, I decided that I wanted to confess my feelings. I have been hiding it far too long (3 years).
It was on a sunny day, the wind was soft and cool, and my friend and I decided to get Bubble Tea. I made him order the same flavour as me (>_<)! Then we walked home together.
The street was bright, the sun was shining, and we were wlaking under the shade. I said to him:
Me: "I like you a lot..."
Him: "I know you do.."
Me: "No, like...I really really like you..."
Him: "I know, it's because I'm cool right?"
Me: "No, like...I like you more than just a friend..."
Then we came along an intersection and I said, "Bye..?" And all he did was give me a high five, and jsut walked home silently.
I felt that he didn't even care. I asked him later what he thought, and he said that his just not into guys.
So there you go, I lost a friendship because now it's very awkward to face each other.
But I still want to be friends with him...but we avoid each other and pretend we don't exist.
I can't stop thinking about him..because, I feel like we never settled it.
He told me his thoughts in MSN, but I feel like I need to talk to him about it face to face so I can finally get over it.
It's difficult for us to meet.
But I sense that he acts more close to me when no one is around...but when there are people around he won't take notice of me. I sensed it because we actually say "hi" to each other when no one's around.
So I feel that I can settle this with him if we talked about it when no ones around. I just want to hear it from his own mouth.
But I feel taht he doesn't fully ignore me..because he actually asks about me occasionally to my best friend, like how I'm doing or what I'm going to do, etc.
What should I do?
Edited by Mashimaro-san, 03 June 2010 - 09:28 PM.
