Blue*winter

*SANBI* @ soompi, on Apr 9 2006, 02:07 AM, said:

Sorry if its posted before.. gomen gomen..

O.O know whats weird? its the same day, while I was online, that I fell off my chair due to extreme dizziness. FOR REAL.

I also heard that they are not letting hom join DBSG's Japan tour..

Anybody else know about this?

Okay...

Monday 2:00am

I was chatting with my boyfriend of one year. We were talking about band stuff since were both in bands. He then dropped the news that they were about to get signed. I was really happy for them cause its been a long time since we've started playing. 8 years to be exact.. 8 years in separate bands and striving to get out there. So his big break was like a big break for me too.. I was really happy that I almost started crying.

Then, he said that included in their contract was that the members shouldnt have any relationship (bf/gf) while they are under the management of the company.

I asked him, what was he trying to say.

He said, we have to break up.

As simple as that and my heart stopped. I couldnt even type in anything. He was starting to call my phone, but I really couldnt move. I was like this statue.. drained of all feeling... I was just staring at the computer screen and I kept thinking to myself if this was possibly just a dream. Unfortunately it wasnt.

It wasnt until he typed:

"Goodnight, I'll see you tomorrow"

That I actually regained my senses. I wanted to throw at him every curse word I knew.. I wanted to call him all sorts of bad names.. I just wanted him to feel my hate.. That I despised him.. that if it were possible I wouldve killed him.

Some friends told me that I should also think about him too. That maybe he was feeling the same way.

I dunno. I want to but I cant. Im being selfish just like he is.

Then we had our talk over the phone cause I didnt want to see him.

He told me that I should stop living in my fantasy world. I should get myself up and start doing something. Because I cant do like this forever. He said thats the reason why my band's getting nowhere. He said, I should stop acting like Im in this fairytale. He told me to stop reading Nana. He said he hated that manga so much. He hated the fact that people around us often likened us to Nana and Ren.

It wouldve been cute, really, if people really see us like Nana and Ren. But now, it feels... weird. I dont want to be labeled Nana.. I dont want to be compared to a fictional manga. I dont live in a fantasy world and my band is getting somewhere. It just so happens that they got their break first.

I realized then he was one selfish a**hole. We almost broke up before cause we we're talking about making it big. He didnt want my band to get signed cause he didnt want to compete with his gf. I forgave him for that. Even though my friends didnt want me to. Now, I could almost hear my bandmates and friends say:
"WE TOLD YOU SO."

I was stupid. I ADMIT THAT. But what hurts the most is the fact that I still like this a**hole. I still love him. I dont even know why. I really dont.

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Im sorry. I needed to get that out of me.

Thanks for reading, anyways.

If anyone has it..

Thank you~

Hi!

Im pretty sure there are Filipino Fans here living in the Philippines. Well, guess what? Some BoA fans from different forums are planning a grand meeting. For us to like get to know each other and stuff. Everyone's been hoping
(and praying hard) that somehow we'd become an official fan club for BoA in the Philippines. So far, we havent gotten much cooperation. I hope this time around we'd make it.

We're just asking for one day from all you guys, to show your love for BoA.
For more info you can PM me or contact me through this number:
+639182237936

Thanks so much..

-PAO

P.S. (admins, moderators)

I dont know if its alright to post this here. If it isnt you have the right to remove it. ^^ Oh and if its okay to have this here, maybe someone can put it on sticky (?) I mean like a pinned thread for maybe a month or 2? Please.. Thanks!!

I was wathing NHK's music show late last night when I saw this girl. A singer, she looks young I guess. She played the piano, and her songs were really nice. I wanted to know her name but blame it on my lack of Japanese skills, I wasnt able to.

Anyways, she had a ponytail, ... hmm.. she wore yellow clamdiggers and sneakers. Her piano was painted with murals of the night sky, playing children..

Anyone here who can help me find her? or atleats get me some info and a name?

Thanks so much.